There is
a change, rather a shift. When it started, I savoured the feeling considering
it to be an exception but I am happy that it has lasted the initial euphoria
stage and now it seems to have settled for good. Well, predicting anything to
last forever is pretty preposterous, yet, for me 'for good' has itself taken a
new meaning, which is - as long as it (anything) happily stays with me.
I think I
have spent the last couple of decades or so of my life trying to run a
competition against time. I often derived an exceptional thrill in packing
maximum in minimum so that every moment is used to the fullest. In fact I have
tried to manage parallel processing on various fronts so that every moment
becomes manifolds. In my mind, I have planned before leaving the bed - which
sequence should I follow to gain the most. I do not have any regrets for having
spent a good number of years doing so. But all of a sudden this changed one
fine day.
Early in
the morning while coming back from my usual yoga practice I heard my mind
telling me, rather commanding me thus -
there is no hurry, there is no rush, do everything peacefully, sit comfortably
to have breakfast, it is perfectly fine if the lunch gets ready by the lunch
time only and not way in advance and it is permitted to do activities
sequentially. I listened to my mind that day, I slowed down and I thoroughly
enjoyed that pace. I could not help noticing a certain calmness engulfing me
engaged in this manner. I enjoyed every single moment that day, although none
was power packed. From that day on, I have been mindfully trying to work at the
new pace. There is no tearing hurry to squeeze out time for some more of this
or that - art work, reading, cooking, learning new things and many more. I
realised, there is no competition that I have to take part in. I do not have to
prove to anybody that I could read a certain number of books in a year, that I
could cook five dishes in one hour, that I could make a piece of art worthy of
appreciation. Even if I cook only one dish in a couple of hours - it is not
less than any piece of art. It is for me, because it gives me immense
satisfaction after having created it.
More than
a year back, owing to some health issues I felt the need to hire a cook for the
daily cooking. It continued for a year or so and I rationalised the new setup
thinking that there is no charm or fun in cooking the same classic everyday
dishes. I should rather devote my time and energy to adding newer things to my
skill set in different fields. Incidentally, that feeling also changed with the
altered pace. There may not be any glamour in cooking the same old dishes but
then every mundane activity is an opportunity to perfect it even more while
completely dedicating oneself in that time to that activity. There is nothing
which cannot be turned into a masterpiece. Isn't it?